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| 1. I am so over my MST job. I hope I don't have to do this for the next year. All the jobs I want don't actually pay you, or require a highschool diploma.. .So I am stuck doing actual grunt work so I can afford to pay off my loans...I should have learned spanish in high school and become a professional translator.. I could be making BANK... oh well. 2. LOST connections. so i am a cl at bsf right now, so i have gotten to know some of the ladies better. I have some cool connections with a lot of the women- we know mutual people in the community... but here are the coolest connections- Pam Bunn- (area advisor) she found me at BSF one thursday morning last year...she knows my parents and the Goulds- a family friend.. and she lives 2 streets down from me.. and she housed a girl last year who was thinking about moving to Raleigh- she wanted to have me over for dinner to meet this girl because we are almost the same age, but we never connected because of major scheduling conflicts... 6 months later Michelle (my roommate) tells me she found us a 3rd roommate who she met in Colorado... the girl moves in- turns out she is the same girl who lived with Pam Bunn who Pam wanted me to meet.. crazy Shannan- cl- she and i started talking one day - she used to live in annapolis- and went to the severna park bsf classs-which used to be my mom's class, and knew bonnie zad pretty well- who is my mom's best friend.. nice! Bette- she just became a cl a couple months ago- we start talking- turns out she knows the Rowans, who helped my parents start BSF in Brazil- she used to pray for the rowans, my family, and me- so 15 years ago she prayed for me, and now we are co-leading together at a BSF class in Raleigh... love it.. Bruce- (not bsf- but church), he is my church's worship leader and my community group leader... turns out he met my brother in 2007 at a worship conference and they email a ton about worship stuff.. weird. Okay those are all of the recent ones. 3. Caedmon's Call... Sharon rekindled my love for the CC after a road trip to wilmington.. so I just dloaded a bunch of their stuff.. and i couldn't find their very first CD- my calm/your storm.. my brother gave me that cd for my bday when i was in 10th grade and i listened to it alllllll the time.. and I did my devos on the songs (they attached the verses with each song).. so i found that cd on ebay and just got it yesterday! it's so crazy to listen to it now, 13 years later.. same lyrics but i understand them in a different way now.. i actually remember not understanding most of the songs back then, because i didn't know anything but christian world.. it's nice what a little life experience can do to your understanding of who God is and what he has done! I am also feeling the 40 acres cd- which i was obsessed with my jr/sr year of hs... love those guys.. still waiting for some old silers bald cds in the mail- note to self- take better care of things so you don't have to find them on ebay later... that's all for now.... | | |
| i just heard this song this morning (thanks for the cd Sharon!) and I wanted to post the lyrics here so I could remember it later. I really like this song because it reminded me of how faithful Jesus has been to me in my life. I don't have an exciting testimony since I became a christian at such a young age. I don't have a great before and after story of how Jesus changed my life. But I do have stories of how Jesus has worked in my life since I was a small child. He has been with me through EVERY moment of my life. He truly is my best friend- in that he has watched me grow, known my inner thoughts and struggles, known every part of my life. He has been with me in every place i have lived, he knows all my stories and friends. He truly is the only one in my life who has been with me through it all. This is such a humbling thought. Especially since I usually ignore him and reject him. How comforting it is to know that Jesus has been with me through it all and will be with me for the rest of my life. He knows exactly what I need when I need it. Even in times when I feel disconnected and unloved and needy, i can rest assured that he is there. It's so silly that I try and put this responsibility on my relationships here when I already have the perfect Friend waiting for me! I will probably have to relearn this truth about 23423 more times throughout the rest of my life, but I am "feeling it" today and want to remember it for later. And my journal ran out of paper so i have to post it here.  Faithful One- Selah I find no hope within to call my own
For I am frail of heart, my strength is gone
But deep within my soul is rising up a song
Here in the comfort of the faithful one
I walk a narrow road through valleys deep
In search of higher ground, on mountains steep
And though with feet unsure, I still keep pressing on.
For I am guided by the faithful one.
Faithful, faithful to the end,
My true and precious friend,
You have been faithful,
Faithful, so faithful to me
I see your wounded hands, I touch your side
With thorns upon your brow you bled and died
But there’s an empty tomb, a love for all who come
And give their hearts to you, the faithful one.
Faithful, faithful to the end,
My true and precious friend,
You have been faithful,
Faithful, so faithful to me
And when the day is dawned and when the race is run
I will bow down before God’s only Son
And I will lift my hands in praise for all you’ve done
And I will worship you, my faithful one.
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| * If I were one to play drinking games (which I'm not because i only have tolerance for like...2 beers) I would play one while watching House. Every time they say Sarcoidosis ... seriously it's atleast one time every episode... actually, that would probably be a really boring drinking game. nevermind. * I got Netflix in May, which started out as a good thing, but now has turned into a bad thing. I have wayyyy too many TV shows to keep up with now. New faves: Dexter, Friday Night Lights, Psych, and House. and Netflix keeps suggesting things for me to watch, and then i do and like it. crap. i need more of a life. *Social Work has drained the life out of me. Not really, but I was watching Biggest Loser and they were all telling their sob stories, but none of them made me cry. It's like yah yah yah, your whole family died,,, bla bla bla! crap! see, I am so desensitized to those stories. The part that makes me cry is when they start making changes and push themselves... like when Jillian is cussing them out while they are on the treadmill and then they finish the exercise. what is wrong with me?!!?! * i am very tempted to write down quotes from House on here, but I am not going to. Lets just say, it's funny. * As a girl, when you run into a boy you have "had history with" you want to look hot. even if you are not remotely interested in them or anything. it's probably like a power thing or something. Anyway, if you have any inkling you might run into them you put a little extra effort in your appearance. okay, well last night I decided to take a walk on the trail behind my house, i have my hair in a messy pony tail and i am wearing a shirt that is 3 sizes too big for me, that i usually just wear to bed... and of course who do i run into?! boy with history. i literally have not seen him in 1 year... and yah... FAIL!. oh well. | | |
| status update comment etiquette my grocery store run at 1230am (weird crowd) appropriate alternatives to toilet paper the best weekend ever with my asheville peeps in gboro (including wet n wild, lots of meals, jersey mikes, karaoke at hams, dive bar jukebox/punchout/fooseball) being conned into thinking marissa was prego calling CPS my love for making mix cds. my need to watch / listen to something to fall asleep too advance 09 conference my church saying yes to every event this summer and then wanting to kill myself when all these events happen. how i met your mother craigslist etiquette my lack of attention to detail. | | |
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